During an interview with T Magazine, 47-year-old Jay opened up about his past marriage struggles with wife Beyonce, revealing that dating a therapist had helped him realize what had caused him to stray.
Rapper Jay Z Finally Admits to Cheating on Wife Beyonce
I grew so much from the experience. But I think the most important thing I got is that everything is connected. Every emotion is connected and it comes from somewhere. And just being aware of it. Being aware of it in everyday life puts you at such ... an advantage. You know, you realise that if someone’s racist toward you, it ain’t about you. It’s about their upbringing and what happened to them, and how that led them to this point. You know, most bullies bully. It just happens. ‘Oh, you got bullied as a kid so you trying to bully me.’ I understand,
He further added:
You have to survive. So you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode, what happens? You shut down all emotions. So, even with women, you gonna shut down emotionally, so you can’t connect.
In my case, like, it’s deep. And then all the things happen from there: infidelity.
While this superstar couple has apparently since moved on from the cheating scandal, with the pair welcoming their twin children, son Sir Carter and daughter Rumi Carter, it’s clearly been quite a bumpy road to get there.
The rapper explained that both he and his wife had "used their art like a therapy session."
The Grammy-winner said:
The best place is right in the middle of the pain. And that’s where we were sitting. And it was uncomfortable. And we had a lot of conversations.
He added that it was pretty difficult to see how much Beyonce was hurting.
The hardest thing is seeing pain on someone’s face that you caused, and then have to deal with yourself.